Beloved Swaha,

When I sit in Satsang with you it is like my heart more and more remembers what love is. I have no words to express how good that is, just deep gratefulness and all the love and trust I feel with you.

I come in touch with a warm deep sadness when I feel your love. I don't know what this sadness is, but it feels so good to stay with it and let it flow through me.

Sometimes it's like I am standing on the edge of an ocean of sadness, but I can't jump in, even though I long to do so. And if I try, it goes away. So I just let myself enjoy when your love suddenly brings me there. Thank you!

After having tasted this immense love in my heart - and the calm, endless silence in my soul - I want to stay connected to it all the time. Unfortunately I often find myself trying to hold on to it, clinging to it. Sometimes I also blame myself for letting my mind take over again.

But sitting with you, feeling your love, I can relax more and more and be with whatever is.

I am deeply grateful for having the opportunity to drink from your love.

R.