Beloved Swaha,

At silent sitting today I was melting and melting - and melting even more.

It's as if my whole entity is dissolved into waves of love, flowing. I become one with the wind - the river - and the birds singing.

I experienced such a relief and total harmony in my whole being when you talked about relaxing into our own nature. I felt how all the resistance - towards accepting and allowing my needs, and embracing my nature as a human being - was just washed away. Thank you so much. I felt such a peace afterwards and it all seemed so easy.

Since coming here, I've been in touch with a lot of old patterns, especially during working meditation. It's all been so clear, like on a big film-screen - which has been great, so I couldn't avoid it. Throughout the years I have been acting so much out of guilt and shame, thinking that I hadn't done enough etc. So much struggle and sadness. Like someone wrote: "An unholy battle with oneself".

I now feel myself coming closer each day to just allowing - being open and gentle to myself.

Thank you with all my heart,

H.